Tension Build Up
It's time for a good rant because I'm very moody lately. I think it's cuz I haven't complained to anyone lately or even wrote in any blog. So what's bothering me? 1) School should have been over by now, I'm sick of it. 2) I'm the messenger in a mini-war over an OS 9 disk that my dad wants from my boyfriend (but my bf doesn't wanna lend it to him). 3) Mom has gotten on my nerves about the holidays, always taking her holidays to work and being bitchy when I don't have people over. 4) My boyfriend is sweet but man am I sick of sitting around at his house watching tv all the time. I wish we'd go out more. 5) Xmas is coming up and I don't know what to get anyone because I'm not used to xmas shopping, I don't really celebrate it much. 6) I kinda miss my friends that I don't talk to anymore.
Let's start with rant #1. I have ranted so much about school over the years... it's almost a routine for me to do this. I just want it to be over, sick of reading, sick of writing, sick of teachers who don't teach, sick of their lack of organization and planning, sick of sitting around in class, English in particular. I feel like it's just time for a break.
Rant #2. Argh the mini-war. Well a little back story - Dad got an old imac from work and he wants OS 9, and hey, not only does he want it, but he's is pestering the shit out of me to get it from my boyfriend. My bf is being difficult and I honestly don't think I could give you a clear reason why. First he told me he didn't know how to make a copy. Then he told me he needed to find it in his closet. Then he told me it was a DVD and it wasn't gonna work for my dad. Then he told me he didn't wanna give me the original for fear it'd get lost or scratched. Trying to communicate with both geeks is driving me insane. Not only do I not have a clue what they are talking to me about and wanting me to tell the other, but the message is never the same, and dad is being very pushy about it. WTF. LEAVE ME ALONE. I DON"T WANT TO BE IN THE MIDDLE OF YOU TWO BEASTS!
Rant #3. What to say? Mom, I don't want to hear your shit about being at work for the holidays anymore and still wanting to celebrate another day. It's over. It's been like 10 years, why ask anymore? And why keep bugging me about my bf coming over for dinner? He was here two days ago and I think it went pretty well. So leave it at that.
Rant #4. The tv usually doesn't bother me but with the tension building up lately, I feel like I need to get out and expend the energy that is in me. Some walks? A movie? Disneyland? Xmas shopping? I mean come on. And then I dunno, the past few days I feel like we've been watching a "that 70's show" marathon. I dont mind it that much, but not in such big quantities, argh.
Rant #5. Can't I just cut a portion of the earth open and hide under the ground until the holidays passes? Can I have an agreement with everyone: If I don't get anything for you, you don't have to give me anything. Pretend it's just some boring month like March or something. What's with me? I used to like xmas.
Rant #6. I wonder how andrea and erica and claire and celeste are. I miss them. I have't seen any friends for over two months. And I haven't seen my better friends for even longer. Argh. I miss them, I think I've already said that.
Okay, so I explained all the things that are on my mind, but somehow I don't really feel any better. At least I can see clearly what is bothering me though. A good cry? Haven't had one of those for... I don't remember the last time I really cried.
Let's start with rant #1. I have ranted so much about school over the years... it's almost a routine for me to do this. I just want it to be over, sick of reading, sick of writing, sick of teachers who don't teach, sick of their lack of organization and planning, sick of sitting around in class, English in particular. I feel like it's just time for a break.
Rant #2. Argh the mini-war. Well a little back story - Dad got an old imac from work and he wants OS 9, and hey, not only does he want it, but he's is pestering the shit out of me to get it from my boyfriend. My bf is being difficult and I honestly don't think I could give you a clear reason why. First he told me he didn't know how to make a copy. Then he told me he needed to find it in his closet. Then he told me it was a DVD and it wasn't gonna work for my dad. Then he told me he didn't wanna give me the original for fear it'd get lost or scratched. Trying to communicate with both geeks is driving me insane. Not only do I not have a clue what they are talking to me about and wanting me to tell the other, but the message is never the same, and dad is being very pushy about it. WTF. LEAVE ME ALONE. I DON"T WANT TO BE IN THE MIDDLE OF YOU TWO BEASTS!
Rant #3. What to say? Mom, I don't want to hear your shit about being at work for the holidays anymore and still wanting to celebrate another day. It's over. It's been like 10 years, why ask anymore? And why keep bugging me about my bf coming over for dinner? He was here two days ago and I think it went pretty well. So leave it at that.
Rant #4. The tv usually doesn't bother me but with the tension building up lately, I feel like I need to get out and expend the energy that is in me. Some walks? A movie? Disneyland? Xmas shopping? I mean come on. And then I dunno, the past few days I feel like we've been watching a "that 70's show" marathon. I dont mind it that much, but not in such big quantities, argh.
Rant #5. Can't I just cut a portion of the earth open and hide under the ground until the holidays passes? Can I have an agreement with everyone: If I don't get anything for you, you don't have to give me anything. Pretend it's just some boring month like March or something. What's with me? I used to like xmas.
Rant #6. I wonder how andrea and erica and claire and celeste are. I miss them. I have't seen any friends for over two months. And I haven't seen my better friends for even longer. Argh. I miss them, I think I've already said that.
Okay, so I explained all the things that are on my mind, but somehow I don't really feel any better. At least I can see clearly what is bothering me though. A good cry? Haven't had one of those for... I don't remember the last time I really cried.
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