Oy
Somehow I'm not really happy and I don't know why that is. You are kind of selfish and rude but it's like you don't even realize you are that way. Sometimes I wonder if I should tell you these things but then I remember that your immature side might come out and get angry at me for telling you the truth.
You know what... a few mintues ago, I was deleting the old emails from my ex and I finally figured out why we broke up. A year and a half later. Anyways the point is that he was never lying to me and that the answer why we broke up was exactly what he said it was. I just never believed him because I was caught up in my feelings. It's really a shame that we lived so far from each other. I deleted everything except two emails... the one when he said yes to me, and the one when he broke up with me. The answer is right there. I never needed all the stuff in between.
In a couple weeks we will have been together for a year. When I look over it we didn't really start out too well, and the whole relationship right from the beginning was sort of forced along. Neither of us wanted to date anybody at the time. Something was telling us "no." But hey even still we hung out every day and spent every part of it together except for at night when it was time to go home. We fought alot but we still couldn't be away from each other. It was and still is like that song "I can't live with or without you."
I'm in such a quandary about this relationship. It's perplexing and its irritating. Why do make me so angry sometimes and yet never want to be away from you at other times? I think you have the male form of PMS. Because right now a little silliness might do us good. You are so... distant, I would say, but that is not it. You are not distant. You seem more bored than distant. That comment you made earlier in Banana Republic... "there's nothing here for you." It's a simple comment that could be let go and totally forgotten in some cases. But in the context of our relationship it seems like what you were really saying is "there is nothing left here for you."
I could be crazy and overthinking things like I sometimes do but I dunno. I really don't know.
You know what... a few mintues ago, I was deleting the old emails from my ex and I finally figured out why we broke up. A year and a half later. Anyways the point is that he was never lying to me and that the answer why we broke up was exactly what he said it was. I just never believed him because I was caught up in my feelings. It's really a shame that we lived so far from each other. I deleted everything except two emails... the one when he said yes to me, and the one when he broke up with me. The answer is right there. I never needed all the stuff in between.
In a couple weeks we will have been together for a year. When I look over it we didn't really start out too well, and the whole relationship right from the beginning was sort of forced along. Neither of us wanted to date anybody at the time. Something was telling us "no." But hey even still we hung out every day and spent every part of it together except for at night when it was time to go home. We fought alot but we still couldn't be away from each other. It was and still is like that song "I can't live with or without you."
I'm in such a quandary about this relationship. It's perplexing and its irritating. Why do make me so angry sometimes and yet never want to be away from you at other times? I think you have the male form of PMS. Because right now a little silliness might do us good. You are so... distant, I would say, but that is not it. You are not distant. You seem more bored than distant. That comment you made earlier in Banana Republic... "there's nothing here for you." It's a simple comment that could be let go and totally forgotten in some cases. But in the context of our relationship it seems like what you were really saying is "there is nothing left here for you."
I could be crazy and overthinking things like I sometimes do but I dunno. I really don't know.
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