Stuck and Lost

I have big dreams for myself but I have been unable to make any progress in finding focus and direction in my life. I see myself being research scientist, a programmer, an engineer, a nuerologist, a genetics specialist, a mathematician, an environmentalist, a doctor, a biotechnology inventor. Problem is, I cannot do all of those things. And I am not sure which I would most like to do with my life, seeing as I only have one life. I fail to have the confidence to keep me moving forward whenever I start something. I am not confident because I am a woman, because I am lazy, because I am ugly, because I am not disciplined, because I have trouble being social. Before I can gain direction, I need to gain confidence. So I vow myself to set aside worries about what I will major in for undergrad and graduate studies and instead focus on my appearance and my health this semester. I made a new years resolution to make a nice little waist for myself. That is the biggest problem I've had all my life as far as my appearance goes. It destroys my self-esteem. Whenever I lose some weight or generally feel good-looking I perform better in every other aspect of my life. So the solution is: fix my wasit and I will fix my future.

Today I ate alot of things I should not have. However! I did do ab exercises for about 40 minutes this morning, stretched, did treadmil tonight and used anti-cellulite cream.