Long Time no Post

I miss blogging. I guess I could start up again or maybe just write tonight. For almost two months now I have been working on Garrett's house. The experience has made me question the quality of our relationship. I'm still unsure about it but I'm getting the feeling that maybe we are not the best pair. It seems like there are too many things that need "fixing" in this relationship that it makes me wonder whether its worth my time. Plus I'm not sure about the lack of passion, lack of depth in the love feeling. I mean, you know that "spark" love is supposed to feel like... you just know it. I've felt it before and I don't feel it with him. I feel something but not that spark. Its more like a friendship than anything. As friends go on a scale of 0 to 10, I'd give him an 8. The missing two points are his short temper and his laziness. As boyfriends go, he's more of a 5. Reasons are the same as the friendship ones plus: lack of that loving feeling/passion/romance/intimacy/closeness/affection/spark, he doesn't care about his health and that affects our future, needs a lot of work in the communication department (i don't feel like i can tell him everything, or share my feelings, he can't take criticism and often loses his temper prematurely). Those are only three things but they are three big things.