Fat

I am so fed up with myself. Why can I not lose any weight? Because I give in. Because I have never had any will power when I am faced with food. Right now there is almost no more food left and its time to go to the store. I will buy chicken breast and some vegetables. I will attempt to eat a high protein diet and complex carbs so that my body has no options left for storing fat. I am so annoyed with my body. I run for a week straight and I GAIN 5 pounds! I try dieting and when nighttime rolls around I chow down. I need high protein, complex carbs, and exercise. Mondays will be running/walking at the park in the morning for 2 hours. Tuesdays tae bo in my living room for an hour. Wednesdays will be uphill treadmil for an hour. Thursdays will be more tae bo for an hour and Fridays will be hiking at aliso for 2 hours. Saturdays and Sundays may end up being bike to the beach days. I don't mind exercise. It's my diet that kills me. In the evenings: Monday nights will be pilates/abs, Tuesdays will be arms, Wednesdays will be legs and thighs (squats, lunges, etc), Thursdays will be pilates/abs again, Fridays will be arms. This is very strict but I want to get this fucking weight off. It's a source of ruin.